Sunday, October 28, 2007

Me and my momma

This is one of my all time pictures; this shows the special bond between my mom and me. If this picture was taken today, it would show us few years older, my mother as beautiful and vibrant as ever, and our love for each for other stronger than ever.

My mother and I have an extra special relationship, one filled with love, mutual respect and lots of humour. My mom and I can talk about things that are close to each other’s heart and support for each other with words of encouragement; we can be really silly and joke around and laugh, something that my mom says she can only do around me, which I love. And of course the amazing amount of love we have for each other.

Often we go to store and pick up a card to express how we feel for someone else, other times we write them a poem or give them a gift, I have decided to dedicate a song to you mom. It's one of my favourites that says it all. Enjoy.


Click on any of the video clips on the left,

just about the powered by youtube icon.



You taught me everything
And everything youve given me
I always keep it inside
Youre the driving force in my life, yeah
There isnt anything
Or anyone I can beAnd it just wouldnt feel right
If I didnt have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
Youll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times


Chorus:

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama youre the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin you is like food to my soul



Youre always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anythingAnd no one else can do
What you have done for me
Youll always beYou will always be the girl in my life


Chorus


Happy birthday mom, I love you more than I could ever tell you.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Marathon Tales

Toronto International Marathon Results


Projected Time: 4:15:00
Actual Time: 4:11:27 (*gun) 4:10:11 (**net)

* I started off towards the back half of the pack. This time is taken from when the gun goes off, despite where I am in the pack

** The net time is when I cross over the start line. As you can see, it took me a little less than a minute to get from I started toward the back of the pack to reach the start line.

Result in Entire Field - 981st place out of 1741 who finished
Result in Gender (Male) - 767th place of 1216
Result in Division (M3034) - 98th place of 160

Averge Km: 5:56
Average Speed: 10.1 km per hour



What an incredible Journey, a day I will never forget. Firstly, my parents surprised me at the Union Station in Toronto. They came all the way down from Moose Factory to cheer me on, I was totally surprised. Because there may be children reading this, I cannot repeat what I said. Let's just say, I said what was on my mind.

I have been dreaming of this moment for years, but I have been wanting this since last new years. I recall turning off my light at somepoint just before new years and I thought would would be something I could accomplish this year. I have been through a lot over the last few years, and I have applied what I have learned to make me into the best I have ever been. So I knew this accomplishment would have to be a biggy, so I decided on running a marathon.

The year was coming along fast, but I still had to plans to run a marathon. Until about about 3 months ago, I thought I would scale down my dreams and run a half marathon (21kms). So I started training, then one day I had a great 20 km run in the heat. I thought, I'm gonna turn up the heat and run the big race. So I registered shortly after. I decision that would change me forever.


Here I am talking with Dr. Stacy Thomas; she is a part of the Marathon Physic Team. The team helps the runners cope with any issues they may be feeling before the race. I was struggling with a sore knee and she helped me with that. She asked me who I was running the race for and then she asked me what time I was hoping to finish in. I mentioned to her that I had a difficultly training with my knee issues as well the flu I suffered 2 weeks ago. I told her that I wanted to finish faster than 4:15. She went on to ask, what if you don't meet your time, what will you be happy with? I replied, under 8 hours.

I was so happy that I met my goal of under 4:15. My plan was to stick with the 4 four group as long as I could. I knew they would eventually run ahead of me, as long as I stayed in between the them and the 4:15 group. I stayed with the 4 hour runners until about 25 km, then I never saw them again, that's when I started to walk alot more.

Here I am at 37 kms and every part of my body is starting to break down. I had to pass my hydration kit to my father (in his hands) because my back was starting to hurt. There are so variables at play when you run a marathon. There is the obvious external factors but the most challenging is what's going on inside. My lower body was aching, and to cope with that, I had to take a handful of advil which I popped throughout the marathon. At this stage of the race, I had run out and learned to just cope with the pain.

In retrospect, I didn't really have to carry my hydration kit, because they had a lot of Gatorade and water stations throughout the course. The few extra pounds in my pack perhaps weighed me down and didn't help during the later stages of the race.

Here I am storming off the finish line, 5 kms to go.

This is how I felt throughout the race..

1-15 kms: I felt great, it was a festive atmosphere. The runners were laughing the joking. I sparked up a conversation with this young lady from England who decided to run her first marathon here in Canada.

The one thing on my mind was, where I'm I going to pee if I have to use the washroom? I later learned from the vets, just pull over and pull it out and pee along side of the road. I even saw one guy take it one step further, he was wearing a diaper.

15-20kms: I started getting tired. At this point, I couldn't think about the finish line, because it's just to far away (42 kms). I had to think of shorter goals, like the next water station of running past the Ex grounds.

25-35kms: I started walking a little bit more, if I recall correctly, I stopped twice during this part of the race. Mainly to eat some power gels or pop an advil, and of course to rest too.

35-42kms: At this point I'm running to finish. I was so happy to run into my parents and my friends at 37 kms, this gave me some much needed motivation to keep going strong. Past 35 kms was an awesome experience, because I have never run further than this before. So every step I was running was an already huge accomplishment.

The last km was awful and beautiful at the same time. It seemed like the longest km in my life, but the people cheered us on really kept me going. These strangers would call out my name and urge to me to keep going. "C'mon Stan, you can do it! 1/2 km to go, your almost done." To have strangers pull for me was an incredible feeling.

There were many moments during the race where I became emotional. I dedicated my run to many people, but I prayed to my late grandmothers to give me strength and every time I spoke to them my eyes swelled up and I became overcome with emotion. Nothing could compare me with what would happen at the finish line.


The moment I crossed over the finish line, I became so overwhelmed I had to cry. This is something I have been dreaming about for years and I did it. My training was rough, and I pulled through. My family and friends encouraged me and I felt everything at the end.

This picture is when I saw my parents, Joe, Aisha and Carrara. Then I really cried, I sobbed and cried like I never cried before. I guess you can say I unleashed the dragon for the first time.

Here I am crying and laughing at the same time. I was so happy, overwhelmed, thankful and proud all at once. A feeling I had never felt before.

Check out my medal.

My parents and I. My mother had decided to come to marathon once I told her a few months ago the last time they visited. I am so blessed to have them in my life. Thank you mom and dad.

Here is my Six Nations Family, Joe, Aisha and Carrara. The most beautiful people I know, they have been an inspiration to me and have been my rock here at my new home in the south.

Me and my dear Carrara.

I noticed David Sutherland from Fort Albany during the race; he was about 3 kms ahead of me. I was so happy to see him at the end of the race. Congrats David on a great run.

My video reaction at the end of the race


Monday, October 15, 2007

So much rested to do

How do I capture the essence of how I feel today?

I'm so tired, sore and stiff. Check out the time on the clock.
Stay tuned for the complete story posted tomorrow.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

A moment to remember

I'm finished!!! What an incredibly emotional journey.

Man, every part of my body is aching and exhausted. I'll have to fill you all in tomorrow, I'm now heading my bedroom hibernate...if I make it.

I did it!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

One more sleep away

I will surely be thinking of...

  • How excited I will be.
  • Who I will meet and how great it will be to hear their story.
  • What I'm going to eat post-race. Something large and full of empty useless calories for sure.
  • How much pain I will have to endure for the last 17 kilometers.
  • How many advil I should take and what intervals I will be inhaling them.
  • Of all the people I will be running for, which includes you.
  • How full of "life" I feel today and especially over the last few days and how I will harness that beauty to make this day and all other days so memorable and full of life.
  • Finishing the race!!!

Heading to Toronto for my final race preparation.

Love and Peace

Monday, October 8, 2007

Running Week In Review Part 15, 16, 17.1

What a couple of weeks, a whirlwind of emotions and pain associated with my training for the marathon. The last time I checked in with you, I doubted I would even be able to run again and now I am pleased to say that I'm all set to go. Marathon is on!


This isn't me, but I feel like this dude feels. Both he and I are ready to roll and get running on October 14th!

The Week of: September 23 - 29, 2007
Distance: 51 kilometers

The week stated off like week 14 ended, full of doubt and pain. But by the evening of the Sunday September 23, I told my friend Bubba that I was all set to run after 4 days of resting my bad knee. My long consisted of a 25 km marathon paced run. What an awful run! I recall at the end of my run, I literally couldn't take another stride. It was in so much pain.

I also had 3 other runs: Sept 26: 10km, Sept 28: 6km, and Sept 29: 10km. I still wanted to take it easy, but train fairly hard at the same time, so I guess somewhere in between. I’m proud to say that the week ended off with a pain free knee.

The Week of: September 30 - October 6
Distance: 38 kilometers

My long runs have increased by 5 kilometres, since last week was 25 kms; this week’s run was 30 kms. I have never run this much in my life, my previously longest run that I have recorded was back in '99. It was a 22 km run in the blistering cold - 30 January weather.

The 30km was again, horribly difficult. I was hoping to run the entire route, but I walked for about 15 minutes which slowed down my pace to a sluggish 6:09 per km. I was planning on a 5:41 per km pace, but really last steam in the last 10 kms, that's where I did most of my walking.

Now What?


When I finished my 30km run, the next day I felt awful. I really felt sore and I felt so tired all day. I was so tired; I was falling asleep during my meetings all day. Turns out a got the flu. What now, I thought to myself. Bad knee two weeks ago, and the flu this week. My entire body ached the whole week, I felt fatigued, I felt really congested, and I coughed up a mouse I coughed so much. Once again, I was a little discouraged.

I did managed to get in a 8km run on October 4th. It was a short run, and it was still hard because of my flu. I must admit, by the end of this week, I was full of doubt once again.

Week 17.1

What is week 17.1 you ask? It's the first day of my last week of preparation before the marathon. I am proud to say that I'm all set for my marathon. I went out for a 35 km run at marathon pace and I completely aced it. I improved my pace by 19 seconds from 6:09 per km to 5:50 per km. I'm still a little off from my 5:41 per km pace, but at this point I don't care. After all the setbacks during my training, I just want to finish.

The week isn't over yet and I will do some light running during my trip to Victoria BC tomorrow. This week is considered a taper week, which means to slow down and rest your body for the big show. What you want to do is make sure your body is rested and healthy for the marathon. So I will run a bit, some light 5 km runs, nothing major.

What an incredible last few weeks. This is going to make finishing the marathon that much more sweet.

October 14 in Toronto, are you coming?